Time for a change – my big 4-0
I have been offline for some weeks now and I’m sorry if I haven’t responded to your comments or been to visit your blogs.
It’s been a turbulent April/May which has sadly included a family funeral.
My husband’s Nanny passed away after a few tough months of poor health. She is in a better place now and while I wasn’t close to her, it’s upsetting nonetheless to lose anyone you know.
In truth, April has never been a kind month in my books.
25 years ago, I lost my second brother (in April too) when he crashed my mom’s car late at night in Singapore. Before you think I’m sinking into morbid depression, I’m not. It has been 25 years, life does go on, and that’s what can be quite difficult to wrap one’s head around – that life does actually go back to ‘normal’, and quite easily too because how time flies!
Anyway, during these past weeks, I’ve basically lost a bit of my cooking/writing momentum and decided a short break was needed to re-group, re-charge and re-energise myself, and I’ve used the time to re-think what I want thebigfatnoodle to be about.
To top it off, this coming weekend will see another two major milestones taking place because:
1) I turn 40 tomorrow;
2) a week or so after that, thebigfatnoodle blog actually celebrates its first birthday too.
On turning 40, I can’t believe I’ve managed to live this long and not killed myself from regular alcohol abuse (joke mum!) and general clumsiness.
On thebigfatnoodle, I also can’t believe I’ve stuck at the blog and have done what I set out to do, which was to start writing.
So, with all of these developments in mind, my post today is a look to the future and to what I’m planning to do for myself and for thebigfatnoodle.
In all honesty, I was running myself a bit ragged trying to post 3 recipes a week and I’ve decided that’s really not what I want to keep doing. I love what I do but I don’t want to burn out here just trying to keep up to my own rigid schedule. So, I’ve decided to cut back on the recipe blogging and only post recipes when I think I’ve hit on something really, really special. The first of these will be posted next week, after I’ve recovered from my 40th celebrations this weekend.
The other reason why I’m going to cut down on the recipe blogging is because I’m thinking about trying to run a food stall this year at one of our local food festivals or at a farmer’s markets. I’ve a couple of bigfatnoodle recipes and products I’d like to test out on the public (real people… eek!) and I’m still trying to psyche myself up to do it. I therefore need to devote some time to learning about food health & safety, food production, applying for a stall, getting enough food cooked, etc
If I don’t give it a go now, I’m never going to, so here goes…!
The big 4-0
Seriously, I’m only turning 40. It’s really not a big deal for me. Frankly what’s more depressing is that with the retirement age currently hovering at around 65, I’ve realised I haven’t even worked half the amount of time that I’m meant to. I’d take getting older over working any day. Besides, getting older is hardly something one can control anyway, right?
But what I do want to do is keep making sure I try new things and keep my mind as active as possible, hence my idea about trying to run a food stall.
I’m also going to turn my hand to some other kinds of writing, and in the last 3 weeks, I’ve started to outline a book I want to try and write. I’ve even written the opening chapter already… Typically, I’m going to say no more to you about this until I actually get this book completed. It might end up nowhere but I’m quite excited about it, which feels great. Again, wish me luck!
Last but not least, some of you already know that it’s our intention to find a puppy to join our family this year. Our search continues and I will continue to keep all of you updated. We have struggled to find a local breeder to visit but someone nearby has finally gotten in touch, and we’re off to see the mummy and daddy dogs in late May.
Which takes me full circle…
With so much to do, and so little time, I just wanted to end by saying hello again.
I am ‘back’ (albeit in a slightly different form in the months to come), and I hope you’ve all been keeping safe, warm and well in the meantime. I promise too to visit all your blogs soon, and reply to all the comments that have been left these last 3 weeks – I have felt horribly guilty for being absent but at least now you know why.
PS – while I was on my mini blog ‘sabbatical’, Thelegaltart nominated me for the Kreativ Blogger award. It’s the second time I’ve received this and I’m genuinely very touched so thank you!